Is the world against marriage? Is the world against commitment? Is the world against forgiveness?
I ask this because I had an appointment with my counselor today… He kept challenging me on why I was holding onto hope to save my marriage. If I understood what reconciling would entail. If I understood what life with broken trust would be like, and other questions like that.
Here’s the deal… I have no fucking clue what trying to reconcile will be like. NOT ONE! Does that mean I shouldn’t even try? What the fuck is wrong with people? This guy is supposed to be a marriage and family therapist, and his first instinct is to tell me that I can’t save my marriage? That I should just walk away and let the divorce take place. That because its going to take a lot of work and there is a chance it may not work, I shouldn’t even try?
For those of you who don’t understand what I’m doing, let me tell you this…
NEITHER DO I!
I have no clue what I’m doing. I have no clue what the outcome will be. I have no clue if my wife will even come back to give us a try. I HAVE NO FUCKING CLUE!
Just because I don’t know doesn’t mean it’s not worth the risk. My wife is worth the risk. My family is worth the risk.