So with the big eclipse coming up, there are some strange happenings going on. First off… she has the boys and has been planning a trip to an area to view 100% of the eclipse since April. She has been telling the boys all about it and building it up, getting the boys all excited. All of a sudden, today, she sends me an email saying she might not go to where she has reservations, and instead drive and extra 8 hrs so DH doesn’t have to deal with all the traffic alone with his twin 3 yr olds. Why do I care? I have no fucking clue. This is just a rant. I just don’t get why she can’t see that this POS doesn’t do shit for her unless she comes to him. He comes down about once every 3-4 months for a short weekend, and never when she has the boys… and yet she thinks its ok to just move them in with him… they don’t even know the POS. How long until reality hits them in the face? How long is she willing to be used like this? If you knew her, you’d be shocked at how she’s acting. It is so unlike her to be so oblivious.
I wish I could talk to her the way we did when we were friends… I wish I could show her what she’s doing to our boys. If it was just me… I’d have no problem moving on… ok… that’s a lie. But it would be easier. I am still a believer in the idea of your children take priority, and you do EVERYTHING you can to stay together. They deserve that much at least. I am getting to the point where I can look myself in the mirror and say with complete honesty that I did all I could. I know she can’t. I’m still holding on… but the good thing is the pain is a whole lot less. I accept where she is… I hate it… but I accept it. I also know that we are still worth it. So I continue to stand. Right now I might be standing on one knee… but at least I’m still upright.